I... listen. You make a solid point there, but I know someone who would do exactly that, so unfortunately it isn't as out there of an expectation as you might think.

[Thanks, Crow, you've ruined him forever.

Speaking of Crow... as Lutha talks, Rean can't help but hear pieces of him in there. He wonders, if Crow saw him like this, if he wouldn't get the exact same sort of talking to.]

That's the thing, though, isn't it? I could say the same to you: The only person deciding it's all wrong is you.

You don't have to resign yourself to this.

Yes, you have made mistakes— actually, no. I'm not going to try to sugarcoat it: you have royally screwed things up. If people are angry and distrust you right now, you have earned it.

And I know you already know that. But I just want to make it very clear that what I'm about to say isn't because I'm childish or naïve or whatever else you might want to call me.

You can change. You can mend things, you can form bonds anew. And the only person deciding you're a "miserable shit" is you.

[He takes a deep breath, then sighs.]

And as for me?

Of course I want my life back. And I intend to fight for it as hard as I can, in whatever way I can.

But if it comes down to protecting the people I care about or chasing that dream? The people I love come first. No matter what that means for me.

That's the decision I've made for myself. I've accepted it. And if it comes to destroy me... I guess that's that.